Self-Love

Dear Mom:

Of course, I have missed you! I missed you terribly. I feel so lonely having to raise a son in my hopefully right way and yet I am having a lot of troubles. I wish you could be there to comfort me and tell me how good of a job that I am doing. I want to be a proud mother. But, I am not achieving my goal. I don’t even know that being a proud mother should be my goal or not. I am confused.

I wish that when I was young, you were always there to nurture me. And I want to do the same to my son. I have had my bad temper. I have made unscrutinized accusations on my son. I distrusted him just as how I have distrusted myself. I did not trust that I could do a good job as a mother. I did not have that confidence in me.

So, Mother, please praise me, so that I know that I am doing a good job. If I can trust myself, I can trust my son. I know that you would praise me, because I am your daughter. You ought to love me and I ought to be loved. I am loved because I am your daughter. This love will be with me forever and wherever I go. With this love, I can have confidence in myself. Knowing that I am loved gives me peace.

Your dearest daughter.

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